I’m tired

More and more students is giving up not speaking mother tongue. Now, most of students speaks their own language freely... But I am still trying to do that. It is not easy. This lunch time, I realised that everyone was speaking their own langeage except me. Joanne talked with Carina in Taiwanese, Marve talked with another Turkish student in Turkish, Minjeong, Jack, John talked with in Korean, Kaori, Reiko, Maiko talked with in Japanese. I felt I seemed to be stupid. I was annoyed with myself. At first, I thought talking in own language was not polite for another country's student, but now, everyone is doing that. Is it implite? Talking in own language is not bad thing, I know. I really love Japanese, but I can't. If I use Japanese once, I can't be satisfy my English expression any more. You know, English expression and Japanese are completely different. Before we speak something in English, we have to construct sentense in English. I might be too strict. But...you know, I'm not such a clever person, I can't control my switch very well. Actually, I'm tired to avoid Japanese... "I have to do that, I can do that"